coming back....SOON!!!

its been 10 months! i dont know how we managed to make it happen! this 10 months has been the worst 10 months of my life! i miss home. i miss everyone back in malaysia! especially mommy and daddy! but then, gain a bunch of good friends from China!

within these months, i managed to be more independent, more money conscious, to be a better person overall! i've get to know people from all around the world.

now, i cant wait to get back home to gather around with the family! there is no better place than home. i have finally understood why. previously, i hate being at home. now, i am so eager to be at home!

to wrap up, America is the land of hope, i agree with that statement. But, also, it was an experience living in America, but certainly not the place i want to live in for the rest of my life! for work, for play, i love the states a lot! but as for the companion, the friends, the family, Malaysia is still the best! oh.. and the food!!!


so moving on... i have bought the playbook! its like the best thing ever happened to me. got the boyf another one so that we dont have to share! of course, it was his birthday present, and he paid half!

its the new year

away from home is the worst thing i can think of right now. it is the first time not spending chinese new year at home. despite how much i hate the boredom of first day CNY, i totally miss it right now.

i miss the cousins talking and shouting right next to me, when i usually ask them to shut up. i miss festive foods, oh... those biscuits. i miss the whole yee sang thing... it is like a family bonding session. i miss every members in my family.

i have a fairly huge family. thus, there is so many things to do, so many people to talk with... the karaoke session at night, the gambling session. oh... i surely missed that. although last year was a little bored, cousins have girlfriends, ing ay not back, i rather have a bored new year than being in a new place.

anyways, its our 13th monthsary. the bf got me a tiffany ring in conjunction with valentines also. totally love the packaging.

it came through UPS 2 day select. i am a sucker for presents. i love that sensation of opening stuff. i dont know why.

 that blue box with white ribbon! oh totally dig it!

 and a sweet message. <3

long distance relationship? our relationship has not change since the day we've started. :) i am looking forward to having many many many more months with you! <3

the connection between klia and beef noodle

went to klia for interior behavioral studies capturing and videoing assignment. and because i was too lazy to drive there from pd, i asked dad to fetch me there on satureday morning. and guess what.. i was early.. hehe. then pampered dad with his favorite beef noodle... damn nice lor.. and dad started to tell us about the history of the beef noodle.. how the beef noodle increased its price from 80 cent to 5 bucks. and how he pass the cemmetry while ponteng-ing school just to eat the beef noodle.. i guess, we both did not spend quality time with each other for quite some time.. yesterday was the day we were together spending quality time together.. and gosh... i LOVE daddy a lot... but obviously, i love mummy too..

in klia
sayaka... seducing ronald mcdonald?? buahaha
daddy eagerly waiting for his beef noodle.. hansome right?
the beef noodle.. but i changed to chicken..
a pic before we slept. =)

DHL???!

this morning, as i don't have IBS class and i'm done with design theory,i slept till 10.30 when mom came in and pass me a dhl package. i, still in the bed, still blurr, sleepy and excited open the package... guess what is in it... hehe a of shoulder shirt... yumyum... thank you VALENTINE... thank you so much! mr roberts, hehe actually dhl the package from Singapore just to give me my birthday present... how nice of him... he totally brightens my day!!!

nicky... his hair tangled... so have to cut him bald... sad-nya
btw... he is a shih-tzu
let me out......!!!!!!!
the package...
the off shoulder...

nice sunset-part 2

as i promised! sim.. see. i made my promise!! dedicated to MR SIM TEONG CHUAN, i know u are reading... thanks for being such a loyal reader to me... thanks. i really appreciated it. *muaks* to thank you, i upload this on time so you can read it when you are back in office! hehe :: enjoy ::

in the middle of the couple's bridge
the whole stretch of bridge
we are walking on stones
buahaha. the ability to write on sand... with a thick rod
so romantic...
i think this picture will be nicer minus the human there..
that was my first picture i guess
no no. this is the first.
calmness of the sea. dont this picture make you calm? it works to me.. =)

i read SHAPE magazine just now and realised that meditation can exercise my heart. i'm so gonna meditate everyday from today! heehee. i mean meditation after a hard day work does reduce the stress right? at least i have time for myself. although its only a 5 minute work. i will start and see how long I'll last! buahaha

the nice sunset-part 1

oh god.. blogger is cacat again. i cant manage to upload my photos. that is the only photos that i managed to change and upload. changing photo format from NEF to jpeg is not fun at all. i hate it so much. from what i've promised, there are pictures below. enjoy...! and i will upload once blogger is ok. cheers!

went to pd as almost all the family is going back. yi hui and ing ay. my beloved cousins. love them.. =) life is imperfect without them.. as usual we "zat" our way there. hehe.

on the way to pd those were the people that accompany me to the beach the nice view from the couple's bridge tring to be a couple in the couple's bridge exhausted me

land or water?
couple's bridge during sunset.
another view of couple's bridge during sunset. i love this picture

appreciate your mom

quoted from that book. it really made me cry.. it is a really meaningful book to read.

poem for mama
when i was 3,
i wanted you to hug me,
i felt safe,secure and loved in your embrace.

when i was 13,
you wanted to hug me.
i pushed you away,
saying you have a bad smell,
and i was too old to be hugged.

when i was 6,
i held your hand, you led me to the park and showed me the way.

when i was 16,
i felt irritated when you wanted to hold my hand,
i was old enough to know my way,
i wanted to walk the path myself,
i didn't need your advice anymore.

when i was 10,
i was so proud of the clothes you sewed for me,
i was the beautiful princess with the glittering clothes,
i had a mother who can sew and my peers do not.

when i was 30,
the clothes you sewed were too old fashioned,
i felt embarrassed if my friends knew i wore the clothes you sewed,
i ordered you not to sew clothes for me anymore,
i will get the branded ones from the boutique.

when i came to 35,
i came to a realisation,
what you do as a mother has not changed,
how come my reactions have changed?

when i was young,
your words were wise,
i saw you as a great being,
protecting me, nurturing me, caring for me,
whatever you did, you did for me,
i was your precious little daughter.

when i grew older,
i became arrogant,
i am educated, i know more than you,
i am more powerful now,
i don't need you anymore,
i take care of myself,
i can give myself better advise than you.

i felt so important,
i wanted to control my own life,
i didn't want you to stand in my way,
i pushed you aside,
i didn't see tears rolling down your cheek.

i forgot the love that you poured on me,
when i was young,
i forgot the sleepless nights that you had when i was sick,
i forgot the worries you carried when i was sitting for my exam,
i forgot that you kept the best food for me,
i forgot that you breastfeed me when i was an infant,
i forgot that you washed my clothes,
i forgot that you cleaned my shoes,
i forgot that you cooked for me,
i forgot your care,
i forgot your protection,
and,
i forgot that you cried for me when i was down.

dear mama,
i am sorry that i have forgotten the many things that you've done for me,
i am sorry that i was not there when you needed me the most,
i am sorry that i closed my ears when you needed someone to talk to,
i am sorry for the many things i have not done.

dear mama, please forgive me.
i love you,ever since i was young,
i love you for all the things that you have done,
i love you for your care,
and on top of all the reasons to love you,
i love you for no reason.
you are my mama.

i cried after reading that whole thing. i admit that i dont really read. but this is worth reading. i realised that i've done too much to make her upset. maybe a hug everyday will make her day!

one day shopping in mid valley

today is some agong birthday... went to mid valley with parents... hehe had lunch at yuen long... the xiao long bao place... yum yum... its definately a good place to eat... then... we started to shop.... hehe mummy bought me a new shoe... pumps...!!! so happy that i can fit into it as msia shoe is always so small... hehe then had dinner with rimpoche in aunty mee hwa's house...

deedee
dee. mummy
daddy seperating the chili and the oil...
xiao long bao... yum yum!!!

si chuan la mien...
sze chuan la mien
stir fried la mien...
deep fried lotus paste with sesame seed
some three colours shaven ice.. our tea...
vietnamese coffee
mummywaiting for her vietnamese coffee
mng.... it took my breath away.... i heart this dress so much
zara... ish... the top again!!!
zara... also cannot find... sobs...
mng... ish... the top damn nice!!! but cannot find.. ish

nicky boy + presentation

isnt he cute??

super cute

i wan food!!!

char kuey teow-ah yau's + amerly's dinner

lor bak- ah yau's n amerly dinner oso

baby nicky looking away...

that 's my nicky boy.... heehe love him so so so much.... oh ya... presentation... just came back from college waiting for mum... so i thought i should blog bout the presentation jus now... in the presentation room, everyone looked tensed up and formal.... including me.... because of that presentation, i have to sleep late and now feel so tired.... sigh.... ok back to story... when our group name was called, siow mei yi, chee shi yin, elaine and denise is right next after break.... i got so nervous thst i didnt go for lunch.... i stared at the 6 piece of cue cards that i've wrote and keep repeating and repeating.... but trust me... nothing went in.... so i decided to call bobo.... haha to release my tension.... haha when i called him he said i was sad... haha but i m not... bobo... sorry.... i was too tensed up.... then it's 1 o clock... everyone came back to the class.... then when ms lojana said so the next group u can start now.... my heart beat faster and faster... then we introduce ourself and the first speaker, shi yin or ellie, started.... sigh she talk dman good.... non stop.... hehe then the second speaker mei yi, also damn good..... the third speaker, elaine..... was nervous at first, but ended up quite good.... then ME!!! sigh when it's my turn, everything gone upside down i forgot everything..... i just can depend on the slides..... sigh..... then at last i finished my presentation..... 37 slides of hardwork but after that i feel damn light.... then commenting time.... ms lojana start off with so... wat u think.... then da da da she commentted.... then the scariest part QnA.... gosh so many people askng ques...... sigh... it feels damn scary out there alne.....

the moral of the story after this presentation, the job that i would never ever do is..... being a teacher, or a lecturer.... hahaha.... it's too formal to me.... haha n guess what... iwore formal todya... but actually not so formal...hehe